I cannot help esteeming Albert. The coolness of his temper contrasts strongly with the impetuosity of mine,which I cannot conceal. He has a great deal of feeling,and is fully sensible of the treasure he possesses in Charlotte. He is free from ill-humour,which you know is the fault I detest most.
He regards me as a man of sense;and my attachment to Charlotte,and the interest I take in all that concerns her,augment his triumph and his love. I shall not inquire whether he may not at times tease her with some little jealousies; as I know,that,were I in his place,I should not be entirely free from such sensations.
But,be that as it may,my pleasure with Charlotte is over. Call it folly or infatuation,what signifies a name?The thing speaks for itself. Before Albert came,I knew all that I know now. I knew I could make no pretensions to her,nor did I offer any,that is,as far as it was possible,in the presence of so much loveliness,not to pant for its enjoyment. And now,behold me like a silly fellow,staring with astonishment when another comes in,and deprives me of my love.
I bite my lips,and feel infinite scorn for those who tell me to be resigned,because there is no help for it. Let me escape from the yoke of such silly subterfuges!I ramble through the woods;and when I return to Charlotte,and find Albert sitting by her side in the summer-house in the garden,I am unable to bear it,behave like a fool,and commit a thousand extravagances."For Heaven's sake,"said Charlotte to-day,"let us have no more scenes like those of last night!You terrify me when you are so violent.”Between ourselves,I am always away now when he visits her;and I feel delighted when I find her alone.
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